Music Gets Us Through it
One very important tool that has helped keep my family and me calm through all our ups and downs of the roller coaster that has been my life is music.
Our go-to song
Ever since I was a little girl, I can remember nights being up sick not feeling good, panicking at home or at the hospital. When I was little, our go-to song was Con Te Partirò by Andrea Bocelli. We could all find peace listing to the tranquil song; we would let our minds go somewhere else. It would help us to relax as we pretended we were in an Italian opera house, taking us out of our reality for a bit.
My girl Taylor Swift
As I got older and didn’t get to always have my parents by my side for every step of the way - whether it was biopsy or whatever medical procedure it may be that day - I found my own outlet of music to calm me down: my girl Taylor Swift. She got me through some of the hardest times and my rejection.
When I was 18 and just starting college, I had a very bad rejection which put me in hospital. This was very unusual for me because I never had a rejection until that point. The outcome was not looking good and I was very sick. One of the main ways I stayed calm was putting on “Enchanted” and listening to the song over and over again.
Just as much as any medication
I would listen to the song to remain calm during that hospital stay. But at the same time, I can vividly remember thinking to myself “Oh my god this could be it... I will never have the chance to hear Taylor sing this live again” when first realizing how bad of a rejection it was. But as I kept listening to the song it calmed me down. And with time I got better and better.
I got to return to college the following year and have the best four years of my life. Childhood was hard for me but when I finally got to college, I got to make so many amazing new friends and let loose a little bit! I truly believe that song helped me stay calm and was a part of my healing process just as much as any medication.
The unthinkable happened
The summer after college I went to see my girl T. Swift at MetLife. Each concert that summer Taylor sang a surprise song from one of her old albums. All day I kept saying how I wanted it to be “Enchanted” as if I was a kid on Christmas morning hoping to find that ONE gift I wanted under the tree. But what were the odds that out of her 5 amazing previous albums that would be the song she would play?
Then the unthinkable happened that night when she started playing it as her surprise song. Yes, it might sound corny, but words can’t express how grateful I was. It was one of those moments in life where everything comes back full circle.
I am a college graduate in great health today. I get to live an amazing life and do so many great things in spite of the fact that there were many times that did not look like that was what the outcome was going to be. And I truly believe that if you find your music or your song it will help you through some of the hardest times of your life like it did for me.
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